My dearest Grandma. I love you..

Grandma, I miss u a lot.. I know it's all my fault for making you wait for me even when I knew that you were sick.. 6 months to you prove to be too long a time.. I'm very very sorry for that. Grandma, forgive me.. You are always on my mind.....

They say you went to Heaven already.. Did you?? Dear GOD, how do I know if this is true??? They say it's a relief for you. An end for the suffering you endured during this time.. I wasn't there to go through the pain you had.. I can't make up with the lost time anymore..