Every banquet will end eventually.. (Derived from a Chinese saying)

I want to dig my fingers into those Sri Lanka Jumbo crabs!! Female crab nonetheless.. I want to eat the roes, sink my teeth into the thick juicy meat from the pincers.. ROARS!!! the Lion is hungry!! I miss watching Star Award on the TV.. I miss my late night supper at those 24hr Kopitiam and everything about home...I'm still a very typical Singapore girl at heart.. No doubt at all..

I want to bring my son out in his 3 wheel stroller, walking with my hubby hand in hand, exploring Singapore (malls) again.. Did i mention to you that I felt like a tourist that time when I went back to celebrate CNY? The feeling was very peculiar because I've lived 23 years in Singapore and these 2 years in the States made me feels like a stranger in my homeland.. Enough said.. I can't wait for the day when I bid Arizona goodbye.. I will miss you much..

It's coming to an end.. and a new beginning for me..

2 years 9 months of my "taitai" life is pretty much coming to an end.. I really ought to be thinking of what I want to do in my life which I seriously had already thought of years ago.. What is my purpose on earth? What is the plan that God has for me? I kept asking myself this question and I get no answer.. I have ambition but no direction and many a times I kept pulling myself back and starting to doubt on the decisions that I made for myself in the past.. I walk, I fumble, I wonder if I'll ever move forward.. Maybe I did? At a snail pace.. As I celebrated my 27th birthday 2 weeks ago, I can't help but having mixed feeling about what's going to happen in the near future.. For myself, my family....

Some flashback ideas..

a) Take a course in cosmetology, learn the essential skills of facial, massage, usage of essential oils etc.. Apply for a job and hopefully I can advance myself further.
Ultimate goal..
1. Becoming a trainer in a renowned company.
2. Save enough money to open my own salon.


b) Join an airline as a cabin crew.. Save as much money as I could and retire early..
Note to self, make sure to check for reviews on the airlines.. How safe they are, bitchiness of the crews etc...


c) Be a full time housewife.. ??? Possible????


d) Take a diploma in baking so that I can work from home...


I had to stop procrastinating right now!!!!!!!

reason 1.. I'm 27 already.
reason 2.. I'm lacking of almost 3 years of working experience.
reason 3.. I have a son to feed and a house to upkeep
reason 4.. I have to start saving for my parents for their old age

The reality is starting to kick already.. ;(


So right now, I need to stop weighing the Pros and Cons of everything I planned to do.. Because at the end of the day I'll still be standing at square one.. Not sure of which step to take..

I need to know my strength and my weaknesses so that I don't make the wrong decision again.. Not anymore

My strength..
-I'm more of a creative person but due to the years of not making the full potential of it.. They're decaying and I'm losing them over time..
-I'm a people person and am very chatty if I find the right company.
-Get satisfaction from praise and acknowledgement which will drive me to work harder..
-I can work for long hours on things I enjoy doing.
-Strive for the best on things that I do.
-Like to move around.


My weakness..
-Hate to work in front of a desk.
-No confidence on things that I'm unfamiliar with.
-Bad at boot licking.
-Dislike replying to emails and doing follow-up, so HR, executive jobs is a big no-no
-Start to feel uneasy around people I can't get along with.

I want a career and not a job.

Right now I'm still waiting for an answer from my sister.. I can't disclose to you what is my plan for now cause I hate it when I have to change my decision again after announcing it.. I have to 100% sure before I say anything.. My style!! =) Hope it'll be good..

Recent updates

I know I haven't update for 1 month now.. Nothing exciting happen recently and I haven't got any fresh ideas to share with my readers or note it down myself.. But I do have an exciting news now.. I'M RETURNING TO SINGAPORE.. For good already.. =DDD

Our 95 cartons of various sizes came 2 weeks ago and now my whole house looks more like a warehouse than any other thing.. This last month, we're really busy buying more stuff to bring back home.. We bought a cute Disney Pixar CARS bed frame for Davis.. Got him a Toy Story table set too but I'm going to bring it back for a refund.. Cause the surface of the table was padded with soft foam.. -_-!!! But I really do like the chair though.. Oh well..

Blasted a big hole in dear's pocket as I suddenly turned on my frenzy shopping spree mode.. Bought a whole set of pots and pans and a matching set of knives and scissor from (Hey"yall, Paula Deen catch phase), her series of kitchenware.. Cookies sheet and baking tins that comes in set of 3.. An angel cake mould, cutlery sets, lots of baking stuff and new bowls and plates.. I'm feeling like a soon-to-be-a-great-chef that's in the making..

Packing packing.. So much things to be packed.. Hey dear, Jiayou hor!!! Kekekeeee... Love love k.. *sweet smile*